I am feeling a bit like a crazy person. One minute I am all business and hope full and the next I am teary. Let me apologize in advance to anyone who may come in contact with me in the next week, you just never know what state I will be in. I wonder if the initial shock goes away? You'd think that by now I would be USED to dealing with health issues and my parents, but really just used to it with my dad. I don't know if I ever get used to it, but I am much less surprised when super bad stuff happens to him. I suppose its really a lesson in not taking anything for granted. I honestly thought that my mom was going to live until she was 100 and would never have any health problems. that's just being naive.

I have a feeling that she won't be reading this any time soon because She has sworn all of us to nothing less than total strength. She has always been the rock for all of us, now its our turn for her. I like what one of my friends said on her blog about the loss of her father in law.... Cancer Sucks!

I think just the WORD sucks. 6 little letters carry such a BIG meaning. Right now we don't have all of the information on how far along it is, or what the treatment will be, but just sitting on the word leaves me feeling utterly powerless and fearful. I think as a family we are ready to get the "show on the road" as she so beautifully phrased yesterday.