all grown up?

Strange as it sounds, I feel like have been forced to grow up. I have been dealing with a sick parent since I was 10 years old, but for some reason, dealing with my MOM getting Cancer is a different story. I am just fiercly protective over her and this whole situation just pisses me off really. I don't like to think of her being fragile and ill and not being able to take care of herself. She has been such a rock for our family ( Rock of Gibralter as my God Mother coined).

I am so proud of the way she has handled everything and has been even more assertive than I expected. I couldn't believe that she actaully called the #1 oncologist in the region, WHILE HE WAS ON VACATION, ON HIS CELL PHONE, to get reassured by a specialists 2nd opinion. I know that some people have questions about why she doesn't want to talk about it, or why its taken her a while to tell everyone personally, but I think she's coming around to face it beautifully. Today we had a very funny and cadid conversation about what we will do IF she has chemo and looses her hair. (She had some friends offer to take her wig and scarf shopping.) This is leaps and bounds from a week ago, when " we aren't calling it cancer". I am thrilled that she has opened up and decided to let people who love her, be there for her. She was actually calling me today to tell me that she had friends that offered to shop, lunch and cook with her or take her to the Dr. She also doesn't want me to worry or to be inconvenienced, and to see if there was anything I needed while Shane was out of town . THE ROCK.

She cracks me up. I have a feeling that she won't be logging on here any time soon to read these blog posts, but maybe I will put a small book together for her when this "story" is over. If anyone would like to post anything on here about her or for her, I will make sure she gets it.

my closing thought.....
dealing with an aging parent or the death of a parent brings a new season of life for the children, no matter how old that child is.